Bullying: Why I am who I am.

Originally written on Sunday, December 07, 2008 at 2:07 PM.

Hello...

A lot of you may have heard a lot about me, maybe you have heard why I am a loser, or maybe why I am so negative. Well, here's the real reason.

For as long as I can remember I have been bullied, throughout primary school, right up to now, it's always been the same.

I started school at Tucker Road, and if it wasn't for some of you fucktads, I wouln't have a problem, and therefore, wouldn't be writing this...

Now, for some reason, one day I started to get bullied, and I thought 'Oh well, it's only once', man I wish I was still thinking that.
The bullying got so bad that wherever I went around the school, I would get bullied, it had spread, now everyone was bullying me, and when I was getting bullied, I really hated it, so bad, that I would cry, heaps, which would lead to more bullying.

By now your probably thinking why didn't I tell a teacher? Well you see the thing is, I did tell a teacher, I even told more than one, I also told then numerous, times, but it didn't matter, I knew I was wasting my time, because they never did anything about it, and I knew that.

Even when I was playing the sport that I love, Aussie Rules, I would get bullied, which would make me self-conscious (It does, just ask anyone who is bullied), which would make me think that I suck at everything, something I still think to this day sometime, this also meant I couldn't play footy as well as I could, because people wouldn't shut the fuck up, and, the thing that really sucked, was that most of the people that played in my footy team, went to my school.

Eventually, I got depressed, so I went and saw a Physicist, yes a Physicist. I can't say it exactly helped as well as I wanted it to, but I didn't want to go there so I would shut up about how I thought life sucked.
After that, for some reason, most of the bullying stooped, but it was still happening more than I thought it would.

So Primary school ended, now began, Secondary school. I was looking forward to it. It was a chance to start off fresh, but it didn't turn out that way. Some idiot was giving me shit, so I just got so upset, that once again, I started crying, except this time, it was worse than before, I couldn't stop.
But given that, Year 7 actually wasn't that bad.
Year 8 sucked though, it didn't help given the fact that I was in a all boys class.
This year, year 9 has not been that bad, if you ask me it's probably been my best year ever. Although, there are still one or two dickheads in my class, but you will always get that.

The thing that makes it worse is the fact that your friends either laugh when you get bullied or they don't care when you tell them your getting bullied and they just say 'It's only words just get over it'.

I am getting to the stage where, if you bully me a bit over the top, expect a punch in the face.... Most of you fuckers' will think that I won't do that and that I am to pussy... Well just you wait and see.

Now, if anything I have said in any way, have made you think twice about bullying, then the next time someone says they have been bullied and they are complaining to you, or if you see then being bullied, NEVER do the following:

• Never tell them that it's just words because it's not, you wouldn't know because it's never happened to you.

• Never laugh at them getting bullied, and if you do, afterwords, tell the bully to shut the fuck up.

• Never ignore someone telling you there problem, like bullying, take the time to talk to them about it, it will make them feel a lot better, you may even learn a thing or two from it.

• Lastly, always be a support for the person being bullied. There's nothing worse than fighting a battle alone.

Now, that's pretty all I wanted to say, I may update this in the future when I can think of anything else I want to add.

So the next time you go to bully me, how about you see who I am, instead of knowing me by what other people have said.

Also, to anyone out there being bullied, don't just leave it, it will only get worse. Do everything you can to make it stop, at the worst it will come to bashing the shit out of them, which is not a bad thing either. Yes you'll probably get in trouble for it, but hey, it's better then continuously getting bullied, well at least I know it is.

Peace.